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INSPIRATION
CREAM PAINT COLORS
We tested some cream white paint colors recently that I think are closer to what I’m wanting, but based on how they look on the wall, I can’t tell if they work or don’t work & if they don’t what about them doesn’t. In these pictures below, they look perfect & lovely. I think I need to paint bigger swatches.
SW Medici Ivory
SW Downy
WISHLIST
This is a wishlist of things I feel right, aesthically (not functionally).
Hermit Year summer / some favorite albums & tracks
Erika de Casier’s Lifetime
This came out in May, but I’ve been listening to it pretty much nonstop — especially Miss, which is unquestionably my favorite song on the album. I really can’t stop listening to this song.
My other favorite tracks are
December
Delusional
The Garden
Lifetime
But I have to say that I love Miss maybe 2 or 3x more than any of the other songs I like.
AMORE’s album Top Hits, Ballads, etc.
I learned about this album because Javiera Mena is featured on one of the tracks. I was surprised by how much I liked the whole thing. It’s just nice to listen to. I didn’t know who she is, however, until I looked into it just now to write this & found a Pitchfork review. There’s something about it that sounds nostalgic to me.
AMORE’s Top Hits, Ballads, etc…
These are my favorite tracks:
Amiga (which might be the most nostalgic — what does it remind me of??)
don’t mess with mr in-between
Last María On Earth
Operelly’s Handwriting Practice No. 1
I LOVE this mini. I first heard it on Flo’s Breakfast Show and I’ve listened to it a lot. This is decidedly nostalgic — it reminds me of things I listened to around 2009/10, like Ohbijou, whose name came to my mind easily when I first made the connection, even though I had pretty much forgotten about them. It makes me think of listening to things in my dorm & the pictures I put on my wall. Baby me.
My favorite tracks:
Vows
Hear your soul
It Must Be Bad
If someone’s gonna love you
There’s also other albums that were released, that I may even have been anticipating, and that upon first listen I really loved, but I didn’t spend as much time with them as I meant to. So here’s me stating that I will return to them. These are:
TAMTAM’s Where They Dwell
Hannah Cohen’s Earthstar Mountain
Mannequin Pussy’s I Got Heaven
Shura’s I Got Too Sad for My Friends
Sorry Girls’ Dreamwalker
And here’s a few of my favorite tracks off my most recent monthly playlist, which I named toni yas & shakira in honor of one of the highlights of my summer + their Dazed feature :)
Laura Groves — “Yes” & “Deep Blue”
TWICE — “Mars”
George Riley’s — “Forever” (Prod. Mura Masa) // I actually can’t get enough of this song
As mentioned in the albums post, Erika de Casier’s “Miss” and Operelly’s “If someone’s gonna love you”
Madeline Kenney — “Scoop”
ARTMS — “Goddess”
Joseph Shabason, Nicholas Krgovich, & Tenniscoats — “Our Detour”
Elaine Howley — “Hold Me In a New Way”
Mareux — “Ébène Fumé (ft. Riki)”
Test
I did a Tarot reading as a check-in & I was feeling bad.
PAST: King of Pentacles
“Material wealth, financial abundance, & wordly success” (Biddy Tarot)
The King of Pentacles “uses his ambition/confidence to create wealth for himself & generates his self-worth from what he has accumulated & shared with others”
“You can translate your vision into something tangiblr, practical, & often v lucrative” & “can now enjoy all that you have accomplished & the successes you have created…financially…[and] spiritually, which you will set up for the future”
“You have experimented in the past with what works for you & have landed on your own methods/practices you know will continue to work for the future”
This was how I was feeling leading up to our trip & around getting the house.
PRESENT: 3 of Swords
Heartbreak, emotional pain, sorrow, grief, hurt
“You are feeling deeply hurt & disappointed” [in myself, I would say] (Biddy Tarot)
It is essential that you continue to focus on the path ahead,” not “on the damage” but “on the recovery”
“Now is the time when you should accept what happened & move forward with your life”
OBSTACLE: 8 of Swords reversed
“You [are] making things more difficut for yourself” & “being your own worst enemy” (Small Spells’ Tarot Reversals Guidebook)
“Self-imposed limitations,” “feeling like the world is getting smaller & more pressurized”
“Your perceived limitations are so ingrained that they have become locked in place” — “In order to become free, first you must understand hat you are doing to yourself”
“All aspects of control in your life must be reconsidered so you can see where you are participating in your own self-punishment & self-flagellation”
For example, even, “you might conclude that you are too old to lose weight, leaving you unhappy about your body/health” — these “beliefs you hold about yourself are preventing you from achieiving your personal goals” (Biddy Tarot)
What you can do
“Change your belief system” — “Catch yourself when you are in a negative thought pattern & break the cycle”
Don’t indulge in all-or-nothing thinking — “You feel trapped bc every time you try to do something, your inner critic tells you why it’s wrong or not good enough, so you give up trying altogether”
“Reflect on what worked in the past & changed your perspective & approach”
“Acknowledge the options in front of you & refuse to play the role of the vicim, taking greater accountability for where you are in life”
“You can see the light at the end of the tunnel” — “You made it through a difficult time” & “are more open to change & self-acceptance”
ADVICE: 10 of Wands reversed
“It is time to stop, drop, & roll” — You need an “emergency re-evaluation of where your energy is going” (Small Spells’ Tarot Reversals Guidebook)
You’re feeling “physically/mentally drained” — “Everything your’e doing, carrying, & engaging with needs to be up for reorganization, because it’s all too much”
“It is time to change course” — “There isn’t a path forward doing things this way, even in the short term”
“Put your self-care & personal well-being first” (this is “imperative”)
“Actively [identify] those activities that do not bring you any value in life” & “[go] through a purging process”
OUTCOME: Ace of Cups reversed
Reversed, this is the card of SELF-LOVE (Biddy Tarot)
“Take baby steps to repair your own heart” (Small Spells’ Tarot Reversals Guidebook)
“Send love to yourself, filling up every cell in your body with Divine love & happiness” (Biddy Tarot)